Sunday, June 18, 2017
To my husband on Father's Day:
When I would daydream about my future as a little girl, I imagined I would have a husband that would be my knight in shining armor, sweeping me off my feet and riding off into the sunset with me, straight back home to our house full of children who would behave like little angels and we would be one big, happy family.
Obviously, fairy tales aren't real life, so that didn't happen. But what DID happen is I found a man who loves God more than me, who strives to do the right thing even when it's hard; a man of character and integrity and honor; a man who works hard to provide for his family; a man who treats his wife as an equal partner, respects her, loves her, and keeps her in line when needed (because we all know how bossy and sassy I can be); a man who loves his children FIERCELY and would do anything for them; a man who willingly got up with me for middle of the night diaper changes and feedings and fussy babies; a man who comes home from work and immediately runs to his children to wrestle and spend time with them; a man who realizes how important it is that I have breaks from the kids so I don't burn out; a man who makes me laugh; a man who puts up with my hormones even when they are flat out crazy (hello pregnancy and post-partum); a man I love more now than I did the day I married him.
I am so proud and honored to be your wife and to have you as the father to my children. Thank you for being you. And thank you for doing this whole parenting thing with me---you pretty much rock at it.
You're my person and I love you.
P.S. this year it just so happens your 30th BIRTHDAY is the same day as Father's Day. i'm excited to experience a new decade with you and celebrate you TWICE!
Monday, May 15, 2017
ONE YEAR. 365 DAYS.
We made it. In the very beginning, I wasn't sure we would. But after about month 3, time has FLOWN. Even amidst all the hard days and sleepless nights, time seems to go way too fast. We went from a sleepy little newborn baby girl to a WALKING, talking, laughing precious little toddler girl.
When Holt turned one, I wrote a post about 12 Lessons in 12 Months of Motherhood. The same applies with the second kid too! It's been a good reminder to go back and re-read.
Evie finally started walking this month! It has been the absolute cutest thing! Of course it was the week after we moved into our new house and it was like all of a sudden she figured out she could do it! And she is SO proud of herself. She just walks around with her little arms in the air and the biggest smile on her face. She has mastered it so well already--she can walk while holding toys or a cup or a snack. It is so fun!
Walking has seemed to bring her out of her shell too because her personality has just exploded! She has turned into such a ham! She cracks herself up and loves to discover new noises. It's hilarious to see her and Holt together--he says "Mama! I make Evie laugh!" Then he starts fake laughing and then Evie laughs at him and then he starts really laughing and they just keep going for like a full minute. You can't help but laugh too! Makes my mama heart burst.
We celebrated Evie's first Easter this month.
We officially moved into our new house this month. SO glad that's over!
Evie wore her first baby ponytail this month. Goodness she makes a cute little Pebbles!
She was Holt's biggest cheerleader during his tonsil surgery. You can read the full story on that HERE!
She busted a new tooth this month! Last month one of her top teeth came through and I thought the 2nd one did too, but it kept going back up in her gums. It FINALLY popped the other day. Now I think she's teething several other teeth though. It has been interrupting her sleep which is no fun. Poor thing.
She has a couple new words! She now says "uh-oh" for just about everything. But especially when she drops something on the floor--whether accidentally or on purpose. She just started saying "wheee!"and every now and then she says "wow!" But her two favorite words are "mama" and "uh-oh" lol.
WE FINALLY MASTERED THE SIPPY CUP. Oh my goodness. I thought she would never figure it out. Stubborn little thing! Wonder where she gets that from ;) And now that she has figured that out she drinks so much more fluid! It used to be a huge struggle to get her to drink 12-16 oz a day. Now she probably gets minimally 20oz a day.
Also, baby girl can EAT. The other day for breakfast she had a donut, whole banana, a waffle, an egg and a cup of milk. Her belly was huge!! And 2 hours later she was ready to eat again. She's still so tiny so I"m not sure where she's putting it, but goodness! Thankful to have another healthy eater!
Weight: 18 lbs 11 oz (30th percentile)
Height: 28 ¼ inches (20th percentile)
Favorites: *her daddy *her brother *her mama *food *walking *being outside *any kind of ball *music
Sleeping: Sleeping has not been the best this month. Between moving, teething, trying to learn how to walk, and going through a leap, it's been rough. Thankfully she still sleeps all night, but she has been waking up between 6-6:30AM and then only sleeping about an hour during the day. Sometimes an hour and a half. We have moved to one nap a day (WAY earlier than Holt did) but that seems to help. AND we have been putting her down for nighttime between 5:45-6PM. NO JOKE. Since she doesn't sleep much during the day she is just utterly exhausted and can't make it past that. I have to be honest, it's kind of nice. But it's crazy to me!
Feeding: As mentioned above, she is a fantastic eater. So nice to finally be at the point that we don't have to space out feedings and bottles and can just "wing it" with snacks and meals and cups of milk. We live on pouches and puffs and goldfish for snacks. She eats a waffle or an egg with cheese and a banana with milk for breakfast. Lunch is usually a peanut butter or grilled cheese sandwich with goldfish. And dinner is usually whatever we eat--she loves tuna, chicken, veggies, pasta salad, breakfast for dinner....whatever!
6-6:30AM up for the day
7AM milk and breakfast
playtime and snack at some point
(if I'm lucky, she sleeps until 2 but not usually)
snack after nap
5:45-6PM bedtime (sometimes we can stretch it to 6:30PM for bedtime but not often. if we have night plans then I'll probably let her have a later afternoon nap so she can handle it)
|i'm right there with ya sister!|
|annnd two seconds later...|
|we have a walker!|
|love my little one year old!|
|these two. goodness my heart just melts|
|mama! take a picture now that we are clean!|
If you have been following the blog, I mentioned a few months ago that Holt has been having night terrors ever since Evie was born (yes, for a whole year now). At first we just thought it was the transition to having a new sibling, but it kept going and kept going. And then he started snoring really bad around Thanksgiving. Finally in February at his 2.5 year checkup, we mentioned it to the pediatrician. He said a lot of times, night terrors can be caused by sleep apnea (where you quit breathing for little moments at a time while sleeping, reducing oxygen to the brain). Sleep apnea can be caused by large tonsils and adenoids. After examining Holt's throat, he said on a scale of 1-4, Holt's were a 3. We tried some steroid nose spray for a month and when that didn't change anything, he referred us to an ENT, Dr. Stinson at Cooper Clinic here in Fort Smith.
We met with her on April 12 and after one look she said, "yeah, those are rather large. he definitely needs surgery." SO, last Friday, May 5th, we checked into Outpatient Surgery Center at Mercy Hospital for Holt to undergo his first ever surgery.
*the kids played and watched stuff on the iPad. Holt couldn't have anything to eat or drink since midnight, so we tried to limit Evie's eating breakfast until after he was back in pre-op. Mom, Dad, and Gran were with us to help with Evie and offer love and support. And coffee.
--7:30AM: head back to pre-op
*Daniel and I took Holt back where they weighed him and measured his height (31.8 pounds and 37.5 in tall). Then we changed him into the hospital gown and the anesthesiologist came by. He introduced himself and gave Holt a TY beanie baby bunny to hold onto. The nurse came back in and checked Holt's vitals and gave him a dose of Versed to help him relax and start getting a little loopy. It was hilarious once it started kicking in! Our pastor, Russ, came in to see Holt and he let him play with his FitBit watch--which entertained him for the next 30 minutes until time for the surgery. In his loopy state, Holt kept asking "what time it is?"
--8:30AM: Dr. Stinson came by and explained the procedure and what to expect afterwards again. Then she asked Holt if he wanted her to carry him or if he wanted to ride the "choo choo train" (hospital bed). Much to my surprise he chose to be wheeled back in the bed and the whole way he and Dr. Stinson said "choo choo!!" Y'all. She is the best. That was when I teared up. But thankfully, the meds kicked in and I don't think Holt even noticed I wasn't going with him.
--9:30AM: I start getting nervous because what only should've taken 20-30 minutes was taking over an hour. FINALLY Dr. Stinson came out to the waiting room to talk with us. She said they had trouble intubating him because of how large his tonsils were and it took him a little while to breathe off the anesthesia. She also told us his adenoids were just as large as his tonsils and she was 100% confident that he needed this surgery. It could have been bad if we had waited. She said everything went very well and that shortly we could go back and see him.
--10AM: They called our name to head back to post-op. He was hysterical, bothered by the IV in his foot and asking for "mama" which is to be expected coming out of anesthesia. I grabbed him and cuddled with him, telling him how proud I was. He asked for daddy and RoRo and as soon as my dad got back there he fell asleep on my chest. He hasn't done that since he was a baby--my heart was mush. We had to wait until 10:30AM to be dismissed. About 10:20AM the nurse came to take out his IV, gave us the discharge papers, and explained all the home recovery info we needed to know. We put his PJ's back on and carried him out to the car. He was literally the only child not screaming and crying leaving the hospital.
--10:45AM: We made it back home (so nice to only live 3 minutes from the hospital now!). He asked for a popsicle outside with RoRo.
Throughout the rest of that day he was very tired. We rotated his meds every 3 hours and he slept a lot. I had to check on him several times to make sure he was breathing because for the first time in a year, he wasn't snoring or making noise while sleeping! That night, he slept 10 hours before waking and needing medicine again. He did really good eating popsicles and applesauce and drinking fluids for the most part.
Things didn't get super hard until Sunday night, into Monday and then Tuesday. He did not want to drink at all and he was starting to get severely dehydrated. I came very close to taking him to the ER for fluids because no matter what we tried, he wasn't drinking enough. The highest his fever got was 103.5, but it hovered around 101-101.5 for several days. I am SO SO SO thankful my mom came to help! I probably could've done it by myself but I would've been absolutely miserable. I had to tough love him several times and often it would take 2 hours for him to drink 3 oz of fluid. It got to the point I didnt' let him do anything until he drank. It was awful.
Finally, Wednesday was the turning point. He started acting more himself and actually asked for a drink. He consistently drank water, gatorade, milk, and PediaSure chocolate shakes and actually had an appetite. He woke up hungry for breakfast and then had a big lunch too. My mom had to head home early Wednesday morning so I am very grateful things started turning around.
I am very, very thankful we had this surgery done. And I am very, very thankful God provided the finances to pay for it and that we had so many people lifting us up in prayer and checking on us to see how we were doing. It's never easy to make decisions like that when it concerns your child, but it helps when you know it's the best thing for them. Hopefully this will help his night terrors go away completely and he will start sleeping better from here on out. He has basically been exhausted 24/7 for the last year because even though he slept a lot, his quality of sleep was terrible. Thankful for modern medicine and a relatively quick recovery!
|Right before they gave him the Versed medicine--he loved Russ' watch!|
|Meds were kicking in pretty good at this point.|
|He kept asking "what time it is?"|
|Our super sweet nurse, Kathy, prepping him to go back|
|riding the "choo choo train" to the OR|
|Evie was loving her newfound freedom of walking in the waiting room|
|part of our support team!|
|back home with popsicles|
|feeling good enough to color with RoRo|
|About 5 days post-op. Finally drinking more fluids|
|He was so proud and wanted to show daddy he was drinking juice|